December was lovely, absolutely lovely! We soaked in our family's first Christmas with a sweet little girl!! . Celebrating the joy of the season surrounded by children deeply warms my heart!
January is almost over and I sit here, pondering, and while I type, I wait for the Spirit to reveal the truth.
A few days after Christmas, our fourth son turned five years old. He wanted to go bowling; we had such a great time! Sweet Pea behaved wonderfully, the boys ate pizza, I won a game, and I don't have a single picture of this special day. This makes me sad!
January comes along, and we celebrate our firstborn son's birthday. Currently he asks me almost every year to make him a treasure hunt, so that he can search for his gifts. I hide clues in some great places; brothers don't hesitate to help him out.
I don't have a single picture of the moment.
I know someday I'll forget the details of these days, which is why I treasure how a photo captures that moment in time.
When it comes to capturing the moments with photos, I feel like I fail miserably.
As I struggle with these feelings, I hear a quiet truth...
"you're their mom. appointed for them. be present"
In spite of the lack, I'm still a work in progress; the Father is continually transforming me into the mom He's destined me to be. Yes I fail. I'll keep trying with Him guiding my steps.
I've been thinking about some of my dear friends, you know, those friends that "have it all together".
the friend who bakes from scratch and has a herb garden.
the friend who is an amazing, devoted home school teacher/ mom.
the friend who is in great shape and has the perfect figure.
the friend who has a spotlessly clean home.
the organized, crafty / blogger mom.
all these moms seem to have time for everything that I endlessly struggle to make time for.
That's when the Spirit whispers again, "stop listening to the Lie".
That sneaky Lie which starts off cloaked with good intention, disguised as innocent motivation, then wearily loads heaps of condemnation.See all this time that I'm looking at my good intentions along with my shortcoming, I'm forgetting who I am in Christ. My focus has completely shifted from abiding in Him, which is where I experience true joy, contentment, peace and resting in Him.
"Instead of looking at your circumstances, your inadequacies, your shortcomings, turn away from them and keep your eyes on Jesus!
Like this verse clearly says, when my focus in completely on Him, I'm transformed into His likeness!"But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as the Spirit of the Lord." ~ 2 Corinthians 3:18
Let's look at JESUS and be Christ occupied, instead of self occupied.